last night i had a psychological episode i guess you can call it. started out like a normal weekend. drinking, partying, ect. i guess i had too much to drink and got really pissed because i was next for the beer pong table and prettty much got knocked away from it by people who were already playing and then played a 2nd game. then more shit happened that got me even more pissed. i found myself at home ready to go to bed then my phone started ringing. the only problem is every time i answered it nobody was there. there wasnt even a call on my phone records. it happened about 3 times. then i get in my bed and just lay there. i look across my room and see someone in my room. it was someone i knew. only problem is i was the only one there. he was just standing there then he looked at me and gave me a judging look. then walked out. that judging look freaked me out because i knew i was angry over little shit but the thing that creeped me out the most was the guy was someone i knew. it was a cop i knew in seattle. he died in 2007 about 2 weeks before christmas. nobody believes me when i tell them. i dont exactally know why i saw him either. we werent really close he just helped me out once and i saw him every once in a while. the rest of the night i was pretty much just crying and freaked out at what i saw.

it might of been the heavy drinking and extream anger but theres only 1 person who i can even talk to about this and she just thinks its cool or was a sign. i dont really know what to make of it. at the moment in just really confused and wondering if it was just a dream or if it really happened.